Anjelo PROW

I was satisfied with what I had created. I enjoyed every minute of creating the song to the point where I wasn't even looking at the grade anymore. I just wanted to create this the way I wanted it to. I was every bit satisfied. But along the way I ran into a lot of self-questioning and reflections. Reflection: This reflection is really important to me right now because of all the thoughts I've had over the past few weeks. But to save time I've compressed my thoughts into just 1 question and how I feel about it, and possibly receive more answers in the future. Question 1: Experience or Grades? This question alone drove me into very deep thought and nearly drove me mad. It almost stripped me away of every motivation I had for music and drove me into many dark thoughts. I didn't know what to do for majority of the PROW sessions because I was confused with what to pick as stated in the question. I knew where I was comfortable at with writing and which style ...

I had a change of heart for this week's submission. Initially I was writing a song nearing the end of the week and was about to hand it up at the last minute but I switched it to another instrumental song which I also did last minute. I saved the song for next week's submission instead. I reflected on this moment a lot because I think for me, it was a moment that defined a part of me. I was writing the initial song and just from the stage of writing, without melody or anything, I loved the idea of it. When I reached the end stage I felt wrong. I felt like I wasn't going to do the song any justice if I just handed it up just like that. To me it felt like such a waste because I rarely make songs that I love making or hearing. So do I sacrifice my grades or do I sacrifice what makes me enjoy what I do? I chose the former.

Art. I have loads of paintings and pictures in every inch and corner of my house and my brother is to blame for that. Recently I've been watching a lot of inspirational videos and one of the quotes that I saw. ' You're looking but are you seeing?'. Then I opened my eyes and realise that these art pieces were staring at me. Its a very spiritual-enriching moment and in that moment I went deeper into my consciousness and experienced my emotions like a newborn child. And its a really powerful thing.

Back to soundtracks again. If theres one thing I learnt for this week, its to adapt to situations. This week theres a huge chunk of assignments due and by the time I realised it, I was nearing the end of the week. I was never able to write lyrics and I found myself focusing on other subjects. So I had to do with soundtrack making again. But now I realise that the pressure is really piling itself up because I feel like I'm trying to rack my brain up for new ideas or things to write and boy is it hard. The feeling is so different from being 'inspired' cause theres a lot more thinking involved. Not to mention the differentiation factor creates a heavier load on the mind to think up of something witty.

I realise that a lot of the songs I do reflects my mood at the current time or what I've learnt recently. Lately I've been studying the arrangement of Japanese music and I spent the week trying to find ways to implement that kind of thing into my PROW song. One thing I realised for sure is that the arrangement of melodies in Japan never loops itself most of the time. Usually theres a story and its always progressing from one part to the next part. Like for the chords its never the same 4 chords, its a series of chords that compliment the melody throughout the section and this was something that I really wanted to give a shot and use it in the future.

I was in the middle of creating tracks from a friend from game design. It was at this point I realised, why not try making a soundtrack for PROW and see how it goes? That way at the same time I'd have a balance of snowmaking and soundtrack production. Not only that, I start to feel the pressure of creating something a week. Also I start to self-reflect a lot and learn more about myself as a person creating music and how I work. From what I see, me creating a song in 1 week intervals may be hard. Too soon to tell, but i'll see from here on.